Amanda Holden reveals therapy helped her get over baby losses
Amanda Holden is the proud and adoring mum of her and her husband Chris Hughes' two daughters, Lexi, nine, and three-year-old Hollie. But the actress and TV presenter went through a very difficult time a few years ago, suffering a miscarriage in 2010, followed by a devastating stillbirth to baby Theo the following year.
Speaking in the latest issue of Good Housekeeping, the 44-year-old reveals how much therapy helped her through that hard time of loss: "It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I've got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that's why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody."
Amanda Holden thanks therapy for helping her through a difficult time
Following her miscarriage and stillbirth, Amanda went on to have healthy baby Hollie in 2012, but it wasn't without suffering near-fatal medical complications that mean she can't have any more children in the future.
Speaking of her therapist helping her come to terms with what they had been through, Amanda continued: "She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality. I think you have none of these worries unless you've got children.
"If it had just been me and Chris and I'd died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother."
When it comes to more children, though, there's no doubt that their family is now complete.
"I'm not allowed. I would be dead the next time. And I think Chris would say you can have them but you're not having them with me," she shared.
The BGT judge also spoke about not being able to have more children
"I've got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me."
The Britain's Got Talent judge revealed that her relationship with her record producer husband, who she married in 2008, is as strong as ever.
"The minute I met him, my life changed so much for the better. He has a great perspective on life. He makes me stop, he's given me my children and literally stood by my death bed and I really fancy him…How I feel about Chris still feels new," she said.